I must be honest. I thought this Fathers day was going to look different. My dad had a rough 6 months, and we had a hard time getting answers and resolutions. I tried to keep my emotions in check and press on, but there were a few times I cried to Steve and friends about the unfairness and that I wasn't ready. My kids weren't ready. I was not ready to face this life, my kids and my mom with out him. I felt so selfish at times. Because I have watched friends lose their parents and be forced into the terrible reality of grief, and here I was begging for more time.
I don't believe I will ever be "ready." My dad has always been my biggest cheer leader, even when he probably shouldn't have been. He has always believed in me. He has always told me, "You can do anything you put your mind to, it doesn't matter that you're a girl." Hence all my home improvement "projects" I think I can go and maybe mess up :) Sorry Steve.
But this year, we were blessed. The patriarch of our family, got more time. He had to work for it. It didn't come for free. We had to advocate and he had to sign up for a major surgery, but we see him coming back. Physically and mentally. Him and mom came out to visit up while camping. The girls said, "grandpa you have on a new shirt." Grandpa likes old shirts, not new ones :) He said, "Yes, grandma planned to bury me in it, but I lived, so I thought I'd wear it for you." That is grandpa humor. And I don't ever want to take it for granted.
On this Father's day, hug your dad's. Don't worry about anything except spending time together. Soak them in, every personality and funny comment. Happy father's day!!!
This guy is pretty cool too!!
