2 years Post BMT

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2011

So here we are! 2 years after Brooke's transplant. 2 years seems like a long time, yet it seems like yesterday. Looking back I don't think I'd change a thing that we learned in the past 2 years. I'd only change the pain Miss Brooke has had to endure. Steve and I are in a much better place emotionally and spiritually since this. Not that we weren't before, but I know we were much "higher strung." Our priorities are different. We are looking through life differently, more calmer, knowing that we aren't in charge. I think of all the conversations that have happened in the past 2 years. The conversations ranged from, "what are you going to do if you have to plan a funeral?", to "God only gives special needs kids to people that can handle this. We are chosen." I love and appreciate every conversation that we've had with people. People dared to bring up tough conversations and make us deal with what was happening. I am forever greatful for them. Brooke will still have challenges in her life but we know we'll all face it together. And I enjoy saying, "when" she goes up, "when" she goes to school, "when" she eats. I no longer think "if."

I can be honest and say there are times I feel alone in this. In general conversation things will come up like, "wow you haven't been there yet." Or "you haven't ever eaten there." You get the picture. This is not a big deal but you realize again, "WE DON'T GO ANYWHERE!" Brooke has taught us it's ok to slow down, it's ok to eat home, it's ok to be simpler than most. (Good thing I LOVE to cook and bake, it's my therapy :) And Steve and I are never alone. We have each other, 5 awesome kids and family that continues to help us. My "Goal" (which I hold loosely) is to be able to take Brooke out more in the Spring. I'd like to start taking Macy and Brooke to church and go from there. Right now it's flu and RSV season so rather than be stupid or paranoid, we'll just keep her home. Her next immune system check is in April. We'll see what God has in store. It's amazing where 2 short years will take you and transform your life. God has amazing plans and rather than guess what is next we'll just live each day as it comes. And give Him all the honor and glory! Thank you Jesus!!!

The girls once again decided we needed to celebrate! So we treated their classes to donuts and cupcakes. So if any of you have children that go to class with my girls and they are on a sugar high Friday, "you're welcome :)" Don't forget to hug your children 1 more time today!!