Plead insanity...........

Ever have a day where you sit down at night and think, "oh boy what did I do?"   That was me today.  I emailed the MD at Spectrum because Brooke still has her cold.  She finished her antibiotics and she is still coughing at night, complaining her eye hurts and has enough snot to fill a small pond.  I knew in my mind what needed to be done.  Prescribe Omnicef, that's what always works.  His response was to have Brooke see her pediatrician.  I am not opposed to this BUT her pediatrician has not seen her in like 4 years.  So I just felt this was unfair to him.  I know what she needs, right? 
To make a long story short there were many phone calls, I ended up crying (because that's the stable thing to do), and she is going to see her pediatrician tomorrow morning.  (what a wonderful, generous man.)
When I read my devotional it said, "when you are feeling down, it's because you aren't looking up."  It went on to say you are spending too much time looking at your situation and not enough time looking at God.  Well, that's hitting the nail on the head.  Kinda knocks out my insanity plea.  So, I am not insane, but I am guilty of being out of focus.  I have been quite intent on focusing on our "situation."  Brooke's feeding issues take alot of time.  The MD asked me today how she is eating.  I laughed right at him.  (again not kind)  My kid has a feeding tube and we spend hours a day feeding her.  So it seemed like a funny question. 
So after sometime of thinking about my day: we have come a long ways in 4 years.  Am I really complaining and worried about a sinus infection?  I should, and am, ashamed of myself!!  And the feeding...........it's a heck of a lot better than everyday, all day, feeding therapy.  Brooke's a normal, little 4 year old, with a cold.   PRAISE the LORD!!!  A few years ago we didn't know if that'd ever happen.  And she's going to her pediatrician, aka: Macy's doctor.
My day is now looking much brighter :)  These ladies bring so much joy to our lives.

 

2 Corinthians 4:8

⁸ We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair

2 Corinthians 4:18

¹⁸ So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.