Have you ever tried to describe True Peace to someone? I did recently and it's hard. It's like explaining to someone how they know who is the right one to marry. You just know! It's a feeling you can't describe. Maybe I've blogged this before. But the subject came up again. I believe True Peace comes from God. It's this indescribable feeling that no matter what the outcome of this life here, everything will be ok.
A long time ago, 14 + years, Steve and I had to sell a farm. Financially it wasn't working out. That was a huge teaching for us. I learned how to stretch a dollar and Steve learn to hate eating spaghetti :) We actually had a lot of fun and it made us who we are today. We learned to put God first. We also learned, together and with hard work, we were going to be just fine. But I think I wasn't to the stage of life where I felt the overwhelming peace. But it prepped us for our future.
When Brooke was in the hospital and so sick, the first few weeks were rough. Uncertainty, no diagnosis, life, death. Steve and I talked last night about our true peace moments. And it was when we prayed and said to God "it's ok. You can take her and we will be ok. She was your's in the first place and we know we will be reunited again." The peace that we have both felt since that prayer is amazing. Someone said, like when we have baptism. But this is more than that.
I think the hardest thing in life is to let go. God decided it wasn't Brooke's time and we are SOOO thankful for that. But it changed us, for the better, forever. Not a day goes by that I don't see God in some form. Sometimes I have to look but that's me not Him. I want EVERYONE to feel His peace. I don't wish hardship on anyone, but God shows himself in so many ways. I just want everyone to have a piece.
So that's it for my thoughts :) I've had a lot more but no time to write. The weather has kept the farmers out of the fields and as much as that is not in our plan, I have a feeling God has a bigger plan. We are anxiously awaiting to see :) We pray the fields will dry out and they will plant like mad men.
The girls are great. Winding down with school, YEAH!! I am just as ready for summer as they are. Brooke is Brooke! I can honestly say I think she is 100% back from her last illness. Her feedings are going well (we don't say that too loud at home), her energy level is back, and she's back to trying some foods. She goes to the MD June 6. I already know what MD is seeing her, so I can tailor my questions according to his thinking, hehe.
God Bless and I hope you all find a piece of His Peace!!
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