Focus!

Last week went really slow! It was such a relief when Steve got done planting and I was hoping things were back to normal. However it seems I cried about every time I looked at Brooke and was not my smiley self. I told Steve on Saturday I was not going to smile, because I was all done being happy (whatever). On Sunday the girls and I went to church and sat in front of my good friend. I thought "oh great let the water works begin." It felt so good to talk to her. Then I got home and got an email from a friend I met at Spectrum. Her email in a nutshell said, Shelly don't lose focus. That was EXACTLY what I needed. I was focusing on Brooke, her future, worrying about what the outcome will be, and it ruined a few days of my life (let alone my poor kids I'm sure.) This illness does not have us. This is just part of our life, it will not control our life. We focus on Him, our great provider and healer for strength and guidance. With that said, how was Brooke's week.......physically she is doing well. She seems to have more symptoms of this virus but is rallying through. The doctors did meet and they have been in touch with other doctors and they don't really know what to do. They go back and forth, weighing out all their options. Brooke has a virus and transplant can be tricky with a virus. They have looked at a couple studies re: the type of virus she has. They also wonder if maybe the transplant just hasn't had enough time to take yet. They are waiting to hear from a couple of doctors. One in Germany and the other in the US. The consensus is at this time to wait and see how Brooke does. They don't want to rush into transplant without all the data (little as there is.) As crazy as this is, we are ok with this. We want all the information and what's best for Brooke. We get to have her home longer and she is really doing well and looks good (that's a mom talking :) We have realized there is no time frame with any of this. It's day to day on how Brooke does. God will show us his plan.
"The Lord shall guide thee continually and satisfy thy soul." Isaiah 58:11