12 #

This is what a 12# Brookie looks like! Yeah Brookie! We have been able to feed her some baby food. She is not a fan of rice cereal but likes the squash. I've also found that she likes ice cream. Go figure!! She doesn't eat much, like 4-6 baby spoons. She has been extremely snotty today so they did a nasal swab for virus' and a chest xray. Many times the snot comes from irritation from the NJ tube in her nose. We pray she's not getting sick. Her numbers are looking good! White count is coming up, hemoglobin is stable. Still heading the right direction. I have started thinking of what we need to do to get her home. So I have carpet cleaners coming. I like to be prepared so this gives me purpose. No one has talked about her coming home, it's just me mentally preparing.

We have a nurse that was gone for a couple weeks. She said she can see that Brooke has grown and changed in 2 weeks. She said she could picture her at 2 years old and growing. I also had 2 different people tell me about dreams of theirs that Brooke was 6 years old! I took that as God telling me to get over my own fears! Brooke will grow up! As parents we think positive because that is what we have to hang onto, it's gets us through everyday. But there is always that doubt in the back of our heads and hearts! God has shown us, it is not up to us. He is in control and whatever path we are lead down He will show us through! So everyday is a gift: for Brooke, for all the girls and for Steve and I to love them and hug them! Enjoy the day and soak it all in!!