Labs

Brooke had labs done last week.  Her normal immune studies.  I remember when I would be so anxious with anticipation of what the results would be.  That was a few years back. I don't really give them a second thought now.  We got emailed that Brooke's T and B cells (the cells that fight off infection) reacted "normal" when tested against virus's.  That's a change.  For the better.  Her over all immune system is still compromised, but her, lack of, immune system is reacting better.  Our nurse said, our MD and PA are VERY happy about this.  So with that, we are happy too. 

I've struggled with my lack of emotion of this.  I feel nothing.  No excitement, no happy dance, no jazz hands.  I'm glad about it.  I'm not upset.  Someone was telling me they are rejoicing and so excited.  I felt like, "what's wrong with me?"  But tonight I got a little seat time in the combine and mentioned it to Steve.  He seemed to have the same reaction as me.  "Ok, sounds good."  I realized, this changes nothing for us.  Brooke is still Brooke.  Cute, amazing, spunky, a sister, a daughter, a grand daughter.  We live with her everyday.  We don't see an immune system, we see a beautiful girl God has given to us to raise in His image.  When we drive, or fly or go away, we no longer worry about germs or illness's.  We just take our kids in tow, and raise our family.  God has removed that fear and told us, "I got this."  We trust Him. He's walked with us through this whole journey and He won't leave us now.  So we check her labs again in April.  We'll see how much better she gets in 6 more months.  Her nickname as always been "Eeyore" (as well as one of her big sisters) because she's slow with E V E R Y T H I N G!  Even figuring out her immune system.  Slow and steady wins the race :)  You go Brookie!  Take all the time you need.  God's got this!